how much you care for someone. I almost literally lost Brendan today. There were complications with the anesthesia after his surgery today, and he was having trouble breathing. So I skipped my last class and went back to New Jersey to see him. I’m still worried that something will happen to him in the night. He looked so miserable lying there in pain on his bed. I cried for hours. I know that I never took Brendan for granted, but you never expect to almost lose someone. When his mom called me and told me what happened, I nearly collapsed on the floor. I’m so thankful that something, some benevolent force perhaps, allowed me to get there without killing myself and allowed Brendan to stay safe. I made the decision to come home this weekend, just for him. I can’t even properly articulate what I want to say about all this pandemonium, so I’m just going to leave it at count your blessings.